A close friend of mine was trying to council me once when my last relationship ended by telling me to accept the fact that gays are not monogamous material, and to just simply "fuck it", and in some ways i agree to this, why shouldn't i spare myself the heartache and just be the me i once was, care free, always having fun, fucking around, but here's the thing, is it enough? I mean why should i settle for anything less? yes it's painful when things don't turn out right, and yes, maybe the entire worlds population of homos don't believe in having relationship, but why should i settle for anything less than what i know i deserve? and no, i'm not trying to say that i should go out and get married and have gay babies right this instant, but when it happens, why do i have to assume that it will go bad, is this what the gay world has come to? what, just because i'm gay, am i not worthy of love or something? i really don't know anymore, if i'm a fool for believing in all that rosy filtered romance shit, then a fool can only hope, i can't go on feeling like i need to score as much as i acan to prove that i'm somebody. i am done with fucking and quickly leaving out the door, it's fun to be the one who does the things that only brings pleasure with no effort, but for me though, it is just not enough anymore............
Other stuff that is going on......
I recently helped Shamira with design project for her work, its a sales clip board ad thing, hopefully her boss like it..........
Finished MY bosses chinese new year card, hopefully HE likes it............
4 comments:
When a relationship fizzles out, naturally this feeling will tend to occur.. i understand..
sometimes its just better to heck it, fuck it and go out there and have fun.. if u don love urself, who will?
No one is gonna love u more than yourself.. that is what i always believe..
people lie. people betray. and someday they will walk away.. nothing lasts forever
they say.. its better to be loved than to love...
how true. how true.
love u nyah, always remember that.
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Boy! the card - The corner corner flowers like familiar sey... I have those in photoshops! hehehehhe! Teach bon bon how to do photoshop lah! must learn in this line! hhehehehe
haiya want to teach her also she say she know already bah, haiyah........... and you know i love you to girl, and yeah btw, the card also very kacang right i know my most oriental design evah!
OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!! I'm so excittttttttttted!!!! Can you make it in white? Woah!!! so so so cool, in red letters? Ohhhh.... can make it really stylish with like, one word...
MR DAKOTA
Wooo...
Oh, you got me going!!! I'm thrilled.
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